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I'm 23 now; In the BDSM lifestyle for four- almost five years now. I am a 24/7 slave with a wonderful Daddy/fiancee: who is artcomet.blogspot.com. But as you will see in this blog are the emotions that I go through each and every day- in and out of the lifestyle. This is to show how much I've grown and bonded with my Daddy, how I've dealt with 'the world", and how I dealt with people in the BDSM lifestyle; Enjoy.

January 12, 2012

thoughts on the lifestyle and what not....

bf=best friend

me:a lot of people look down upon me and Daddy for being Christians
bf:cause it s stupid my cousin tells me she doesnt care about religion ... then why change it? do what i do bf:and keep the religion you were raised with and go to church on your own time
me:yea, most people talk out of both sides of their mouths, why the mouth is a double sword
bf:im guessin your frowned upon because your christians AND into bdsm
me:and most Christians and bdsm'rs.. are like
me:you can only be one or the other
me:when you can be both
bf:so it s the satan way to them if your into bdsm?
me:and like, the only ways is to be very extreme in the lifestyle
me:and not keep your morals and stuff intact
bf:lol never forget my bro in law sayin when i had my "intervention" he was like well i dont want you to keep going on the path to hell
bf:exactly hence EXTREME
me:rolls eyes, that pisses me off. My mother did that, saying oh you are going to hell, for living with anthony and in the lifestyle
me:it's like, stop judging, bloody hell and learn to accept me or leave it be
bf:lol im Tony too
bf:He doesnt like Tony lol
me:Ive tried saying that, He gets mad lol
bf:lol i dont mind being called anthony but not a fan
me:lol. i just call Him Daddy now
me:lol i did that when i was around family
me:it was so fun see them squirm lol
bf:that is pretty funny
me:i got tired of their antics, and to get them back was to do that lol
me:harsh, but had to be done lol
bf:yea my fellow worker tells me i need to make a stand too
me:yes, and its hard
me:it took me three years off and on
me:to finally cut my family completely out
me:its a very hard decision

Well me and my friend who is also in the lifestyle, was talking one day. He has been having some family trouble with this, and i can see why. Most people think that it is a sin to be in the lifestyle and to have any religion at all. It makes me upset that people will think like this. 

As I've stated in the PM, i think it is bullshit that so called Christians can judge anyone. May it be someone in the lifestyle to anyone at all. We as Christians are not suppose to judge. That is God's doing. I hate that Christians can tell you what you can and can not do. Just ticks me off that you have to choose one or the other. Why cant you be both?

Personally i don't think God sees it any wrong if you have your morals in tact, and that you obey Him above your Master and such. What we were talking about in the beginning of the conversation. Then of course it switches to about families finding out about us being in the lifestyle. And that his is being really assholes about it. Trying to get him out of it and what not. Just think its not their place to do that. 

I know, since my family doesn't accept me being in the lifestyle and has told me over and over that i am going to hell for living with Daddy before marriage and such. What makes me mad is that my own family has done it. Mom lived with dad before marrying and yet getting on to me about it. 

And when family at the end, when i was talking off and on, they would piss me off a lot, with all their shit, that i would do that. Call Him Daddy, and they wouldn't like it at all. It was like a small sweet victory each time they did that, which was nearly all the time. 

And what is even harder is living with the fact that i made the decision of cutting them out completely. It took a long time for me to not talk to them anymore. And each time i grovelled back, i always felt weak, always felt like my old self when i know I'm not that girl anymore. But, it takes a lot of courage to cut them out completely and what not. Until next time....

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