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I'm 23 now; In the BDSM lifestyle for four- almost five years now. I am a 24/7 slave with a wonderful Daddy/fiancee: who is artcomet.blogspot.com. But as you will see in this blog are the emotions that I go through each and every day- in and out of the lifestyle. This is to show how much I've grown and bonded with my Daddy, how I've dealt with 'the world", and how I dealt with people in the BDSM lifestyle; Enjoy.

April 24, 2012

People who are delusional


ja=jack ass

ja:i wish i could be ur daddy lol
me:and why is that/
ja:cause it would be nice
me:hm in what way? lol
ja:all ways hun
me:hm
ja:what
me:i doubt that. People who say that, truly dont know who i am, or how my personality is
ja:lol mm ok
me:mhm
ja:i just would like it if u called me daddy lol
me:lol well there is more things that go with being called Daddy and what not
ja:i would like it
me:lol no you wouldnt. this lifestyle is not for everyone
ja:lol well i still would like to be called daddy
me:sigh, you are just not getting it
me:oh well
ja:im not talkin about the lifestyle ... just the name
me:like i said, you are not getting it. oh well, good bye

I love how people always tell me they would love to own me, or they would love to do this or that to me. And it's funny because they cant handle me being a bitch, or lashing out and so forth. If you think you can call me your slave, then you should be able to control me, correct? Well when i show myself just a bit, they all run away or most of them are just diluted and think oh i can handle her, no problem.


It's a bit tiresome having to tell them, nope because they don't know me at all, except what i show them. Which is only a little bit, like a cookie cutter part. Of me hiding my personal stuff and so forth. So how is that knowing me? It's not. I'm a hard person to control and the only one i would ever do that is Daddy. Daddy knows this and so does everyone else who comes up and tries to do shit. 


I show a bit of my anger, i show a bit of my sadness, and i show a lot of my happiness. But that doesn't show what i went through, what i go through and so forth. I guess its funny that people think oh how wonderful it will be for someone to call me daddy and what not. When they have no clue what that means. And i tried telling this fool, there is more that meets the eye. Of course he couldn't comprehend that. 


It's already hard enough to take care of another person. It takes a lot more deal in a BDSM lifestyle and in a D/s relationship than in a vanilla one. Yet people don't see it like that. They see it as, oh this is so fucking hot(with all the sexual kink things that go on) or how hot it is to be called a daddy and what not. When they have no clue as to how much pain, how much suffering, heartache and so forth went into that. And with that, Until next time....

Just people, shakes head


nom:nymphing around?
me: i wish i was. Not in any water, so, that will be a no
nom:sex in the water
me:no
nom:is that ur thing?
me:not a nympho
me:shakes head
nom:what exactly does that mean
me:en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Naiad that is what i am
me:shessh
nom:ok
nom:maybe my mind is in the gutter
me:seems like a lot of people's minds are in the gutter, if they assume im a nympho and not read the whole id first
nom:well if u dont mind me chatting with u with one hand lol
nom:is that the " i m ignoring you so u can get the hint" ?
nom:you can just say yes
nom:i ll leave u alone
nom:its better than being ignored
nom:so ur just going to ignore me/

And again, this happens all over again. First this dude thinks I'm a nympho, (they all think this) and then i correct him with a damn link to what a water nymph is. He just chalked it up to well I'm just horny and no sorry or anything. Then he has the nerve to ask if he can talk to me while he is masturbating. From there i just ignored him. It's better to do that, than to put on block. He didn't like it one bit, and should of taken the hint a long time ago. But about ten minutes after asking these he finally leaves.


I don't get why they want to do this. They see my id and think of she loves sex, she wont mind me doing this and what not. Sorry but like i said in my last post i will not talk to people who are going to do this. It is a waste of time for you and so forth. I guess people will never understand this. Until next time.....

People who truly think they are in the lifestyle.....


dog:wow that is so hot starting so young.. it is so trustworthing to be a sloave
dog:how old is your owner
me:He is 29
dog:how long has he been dom
me:hm
dog:yes him
me:about ten years
dog:is that really you with the collar on ??
me:yes i was thinking
me:yes it is
dog:mmmmmmmmmmmmm hot
dog:very hot i've had a vfew collard
me:oh
dog:i get turned on everytime i see a choker chain on a young female
dog:i try to give tghem a sign that i know why they wearing it
me:oh
dog:nice .. bondage>
me:um only light for now
dog:what is light?
me:just sometimes of tying up

Apparently a stupid person who is thinks they are in the lifestyle just had to talk to me. Starts okay being okayish, until i say a few things and goes mmmmm that is so hot. Okay, i can already tell this dude is a wacko job. And rereading his id now, i should of seen it a long time ago. This dude is nuts. This lifestyle isn't sexual nor is it a game to be playing with. And he says  i know I'm not playing with it and what not. Yet, he keeps saying mmm to things. It started getting annoying as hell. 


Then i just had to stop the conversation when he asked to masturbate while chatting. If you are going to do that, then you should leave. I'm not here for cybering, or me talking and you doing that. Sorry but that isn't what I'm here for. It's to meet people and hopefully find friends. None of this bull shit of thinking people are in the lifestyle. 


From there, he doesn't know what the hell he is talking about. If you cant get what light bondage means, then you have no business being in the lifestyle or even trying to be in it. I guess it just upsets me that people are so fucking delusional that they think they are in the lifestyle for real and not harming anyone. 


And with saying i try to give them a hint that i know why they wear the collar, well if the master/Dom knew, they would not like it at all. As you are getting into personal space and there is some protocol you have to do in this lifestyle. This lifestyle is about having manners and so forth. Sigh, when will this ever end? Oh i know, never as people think they are not harming people and can do it no matter what. shakes head, Until next time.....

April 19, 2012

Sigh what can i say....


mar:slave?
me:hm
mar:what kind of slave are you
me:hm domestic
me:and owned
mar:damn. i'm a dom
mar:casually looking
me:okay
mar:sorry...i'll leave u alone though
me:good bye

I love how people on wire club are only there to find people to dom and such. I mean at least he just said bye and not to go on. But come on, wire club is a social site to make friends and what not. Not a dating site and to have sex on. As you can see, I'm getting quite tired of it. Sigh what can you do, but let out some anger on these people. Until next time....

Oh stupid people....


db=dumb ass

db:Hey!....are you a submissive girl?
me:yup, who is owned
db:so you don t let yourself being used as a dirty little camwhore ?
me:nope, it states it in profile and also rules
if that is what you are looking for, then go find another fake ass submissive who thinks of herself of nothing but a whore
good bye

I'm getting pretty much tired of people thinking a slave is just a free whore to be used when people want them. So, as you see in this little pm my thoughts on this douche. I do notice that my Domme side is coming out more on these dumb asses, because they don't want to learn from their mistakes. They think they are right and keep on going with their lives. I'm just tired of people not understanding this lifestyle because you have so many people doing the cliche stuff that people mention. And when someone doesn't do that, they just assume you do it. Or gasp when you say something different. Anyways enjoy and Until next time...

April 17, 2012

oh childish games....


jamel: asl?
jamel: are you gay?
me: lol even if i was, why does that matter/
jamel: coz ı am not gay.. ı am normal guy
me: lol so why are you bringing it up?
jamel: why are you not answer
me: lol because i dont have to answer to stupid questions
jamel: yes coz u are stupid
me: lol nope, that is truly you

Sometimes people are just too funny. Well i get a pm in yahoo and of course first thing is ASL. Now, if you ever talked to me in any messenger or site that has chat, i will answer my gender is obvious and people really hate it, because they have to work their poor little brains out. Right after that, he asks if I'm gay. I still don't know where the hell this came from, and asked. 
 He didn't like my answer and then just called me stupid, which a child would only do. It's a shame that people always have to resort to name calling to feel superior. It doesn't fly with me. After that, i kept calling him stupid just to annoy him a bit more and then just left. 
 I don't get how people can be like this and it boggles my mind for the most part. But i guess you just have to deal with all type of people who try to come pounding into your life. And with this Until next time...

People who up and leave out of nowhere....


patrick:so how come no pics?
me:not allowed nor do i want to put them up
patrick:not allowed? by who?
me:Daddy/fiancee
patrick:wow, you seem fun...
me:lol in what way?
patrick:you like being submissive?
me:nah, i was forced into it. Of course i love being submissive
patrick:I meant that's why you seem fun haha
patrick:I often wish my gf was more submissive
me:welp you cant force it and this lifestyle isnt for everyone
patrick:it's true
patrick:how far do you take it?
me:well, lets say, do S and M, and what not

I love how people talk to me for just a bit, and find something out that they don't like and just leave. I had this conversation on wire club. And lately I've been getting snippy with my responses to people. I just wanted to point out, that this isn't the first person to talk to me just for a bit and then just leave. You know, i really don't mind if you talk to me or not, but it would be nice and be polite they said they didn't like it in a polite way and then just leave. You got to love people huh. Well enjoy the conversation and Until next time....

Learning a bit more on the lifestyle


trust:is this true that a slave girls feels she's owned once the master puts the collar around her neck ?
no. I felt i was owned before i was collared

trust:how long have you been a slave ?
almost five years

trust:What makes you a slave ?
trust:What do you do, etc...
 what makes me a slave... um it's just in my nature.. not sure how to really define that
 what i do, in the lifestyle, im a domestic slave, cleaning and such, but also, listening to Daddy when He needs it, and also do S and M

trust:Daddy ?
trust:Your father ?
 yes Daddy Dom
no

trust:Calling him Daddy means you do a sort of a roleplay, right ?
 hm how to explain this
not really roleplay
as in, hm
it doesnt stop at all. And with what W/we do, it's not roleplay. He acts like a father

trust:chooses your clothes, etc ?
not on clothes.... but other things

trust:what other things ?
like foods, when i can talk, what i can do, disciplines me for my attitude and what not

trust:are you into pain ?
of course, what S and M is

trust:I'm french and here, S&M is more "rough sex"
not real pain and punishments
 S and M is sadistic and Masochism... doesnt involve sex

My opinion is people don't make the difference between a slave and a "free whore".

Someone on wire club wanted to know a little bit more of the lifestyle. So, at firs he asked does a slave feel owned once a master puts a collar around her neck. And that is very untrue. Before you even collar a slave, you have to train him/her in the ways you want him/her to do. So, before being collared, you already have that feeling. And with discipline, and testing and learning things, you already feel you are with them no matter what. Just putting the collar around your neck, just shows that you are owned visibly. 


With the other things, it is common, and I've stated them quite a bit. Now, the last thing was getting into a different topic. It was about S and M and how people can not differentiate between a free whore and a slave. And that is true. Most people who come to me in pm's will want sex and want it now. And think that a slave is only a sex object. When it's not like that at all. It really does pisses me off, that people assume I'm a sex slave and that is all i do for my Daddy. But what is funny though is this: I've noticed people are really put off on S and M, yet people still try and dom me without ever being in the lifestyle and just wanting plain sex anyways because they see slave. I see that a lot of people have double standards, and i can be baffled on it a lot. 


Another thing that is a bit tiring, is when i say Daddy/fiancee, people always assume He is my real father. It's like even people in the lifestyle gasp at the word. I'm like come on people, you are in the lifestyle, this word is used all the time. Yet, they are so baffled and scoff at it, like I'm the crazy one. I'm just getting to the point of saying, yup He is my real father and see what happens. But anyways, enough on this. Until next time....

People's true personalities come out after a few questions...


noah:i like your name
noah:its pretty hot
me:lol how is it hot?
noah:idk kinda sexy
me:in what way?
noah:idk i guess its just a feeling i have….i also think yu might be kinda cute
me:hm and im thinking you think im a nympho when im not
noah:no no not at all
me:hm then i dont know where you get it's hot and sexy and such
noah:sorry bye
me:yup bye
noah:bitch
me:lol whore
noah:im a dude….your the fuckin stuck up bitch who gets offended bye a dude thinking your name is cool
me:nope, not at all. But think what you will. You cant handle someone asking questions and you cant even answer them. And funny, i see your personality comes out after a few little questions
me:so anyways go your damn way
me:good bye

Lol, i just love people. This guy pm's me on wire club and says my name is hot. Now, what do you think of this, when someone tells you that? For me, it's trying to get into my e-pants, and trying to pay pretty compliments. So, i ask him a few questions. Why do you think its hot and such. And of course the only thing he can say is, i don't know. Well that isn't a comment I'm going to take then. He keeps up with it, and i keep asking why questions.


He says bye, so I'm like okay bye. And then he comes back and says I'm a bitch, when i just merely asked a few questions. You just got to love people. They hate it when i don't play their little games. They think they can get whatever they want, all because they paid a person whom they don't even know some compliments, that are not true at all. 


So, i just let him have it. I called him a whore and he keeps saying I'm a dude, okay, that doesn't mean you are strong or right. All it states is that you are a dude, and kept saying it when i called him a whore. Now, a whore can be for both genders not one. I think i know he was going with that, but i think that he was trying to be all macho/dom when it didn't work at all. 
 After a bit, i just blocked him for about a minute, if less, and then unblocked him and hasn't said a word back.  Well enjoy and Until next time.....

So called friend trying to push a different religion on me..


tark:i found something make my soul comfortable
tark:if u tired just read alittle in their book
tark:they called it quran i think so
me:oh, no thank you. I dont read any other "bibles"
tark:it is not bibles
tark:u are strong gril and u tried alot of things ont he life and u do lifestyle and end u said that
me:of course i am strong and what not, but i do not read any other bible but the Holy bible
me:my faith is different than anything else in me
me:and the quarn is a bible
tark:i do not aske u be muslam i said just read some words
tark:coz i read alittle and i fell happy
tark:i wish u are happy forever
me:no that is not what God wants us to do
me:he wants us to believe in him and im sorry
me:but that is not the right book at all
me:so im not going to do that

Well a few days ago i was talking to a "friend", as I'm going to put it loosely. He started going on about the quran. Now, i have my own beliefs. And i really hate people trying to push me onto something that is not right at all. The one thing i truly hated him doing, was slapping me in the face and then sorta guilting  me on not taking his advice. 


That is one thing that is going to get me pissed. And he did it. I was pretty shocked he would do this, but he did it. I think my respect for him has dwindle now. I cant believe someone would do that, after they have known what i went through. And to say, that i should read a bible that is false and it will give me comfort. No, more likely, God is going to punish me pretty bad for picking up that so called book and trying to find happiness through that. 


And i really did lash out on him, about him guilting me, as to being a strong person, but being weak as to not take his advice or to read that book. Sigh what can you do. Hopefully this will never come up again. Or else, I'm going to have to re-evaluate my friendship with him. Well Until next time...

People think this lifestyle is only fetishes......


ryman:how old are you?
me:23
ryman:32 here
ryman:too old?
me:for friends, no
ryman:thats all i am looking for
me:same here
ryman:what do you look like? why no pics?
me:not allowed pics and i look like myself
ryman:not allowed?
me:yes, BDSM lifestyle, hence the id name
ryman:hmm
ryman:okay
me:yea
ryman:i like my cock
me:um okay?
ryman:just saying
rymna:we all have our own fetishes
me:hm BDSm is not a fetish, but okay

So this guy pm's me out of nowhere. And I've noticed lately, a lot of people are asking me what my as is. I think its a bit peculiar but what can you do. I don't think why age matters for friendship, unless you are looking for more than just that. 
 So, he goes on to ask as to what i look like. Lately my response is, myself. I'm getting tired of these type of questions. As i don't have pics up, they think i will tell them what i look like instead. Then i go on to say, I'm not allowed to put pics up. As always i have to state this. That is getting to be a nuisance. 


So, he is a bit confused as to me saying I'm not allowed. And i say of course, I'm in the BDSM lifestyle... and he proceeds to say its a fetish. How is it a fetish when it's a lifestyle? People need to learn when to keep their mouths shut on something they truly don't know about. And to be really rude as well.  Saying you like your cock is not a fetish as well. It's normal to like it. I was going to say this, but decided not to. I think that is one thing that baffles me. Some people actually think this lifestyle is only fetishes. Maybe i will never understand that part. Well enjoy and Until next time.....

April 16, 2012

oh people....


me:
yes
or try this. I dont have any phones, cell phones or a land line phone. Been like that for about four/five years. Can you live without any phones? :P
 reply
GeminiWolf:
Do you skype? ;)
 reply
me:
No, i dont.
 reply
GeminiWolf:
wow! What would you do in an emergency? If you don't mind my asking?
 reply
me:
would have to get quarters for a payphone. Had to do it once.....
 reply
GeminiWolf:
Wow. Ok. Thanks for clearing that up. :)
 reply
me:
You're welcome. :)

Okay, this is again on sodahead. The question was, can you live without your cellphone for a week. So i wrote back, and saying i don't have any phones at all. And it's true. And of course someone is really shocked as to not having anything in the home and such. 


It's not that shocking when you are poor and have no job. It's kinda common sense that you wouldn't be able to afford them. And of course the question came up, what would you do for emergency. And it would be what I've done, have to call on a payphone. It sucks, but you got to do what you got to do. Other than that, you really don't need a phone.


I think what is funny though, in this day an age where the economy is really bad, and jobs are slim to none, people always gasp when you don't have things. Like a job for one and luxury things. If people didn't have jobs at all, how can they afford all of the stuff they have? And it must be a lie, to them not having jobs, if they can afford gas money, car, phone and etc. Anyways, enjoy and Until next time...

Getting to know my grandparents a bit...


*well my grandparents on my dad side: Grandpa is a damn asshole. My grandma wasnt dead for a month and started doing all this traveling and stuff and not really care at all. Then laughed at me when i was going to be homeless and lied to my face, saying i could live with them, when i had no where else to go. 

Now my grandma: She was very feisty. She would cuss everyone out who needed it, and wouldnt care. She had a huge heart to love me, when my family never even cared about me. She is the type to do her own thing and say fuck you to others who wouldnt agree with her. And I also think she was a courageous woman. She survived breast cancer, then struggled with lung cancer for ten plus years. And then at the end, died of both lung and bone cancer. So i think that puts her up for being really courageous to fight through it for a very long time. 


Now,on my moms side: They are both assholes. Grandpa is an abusive person. Never loved me, or saw any interest in me, until i was on his side, with some of the family. Then and only then did i see the twinkle of approval in his eyes. Other than that he wont talk to me and such. 
Grandma: she annoys me. She is a fake Christian. Each time i would be with her, she would always hug me and kiss me and say she loved me, but i know it wasnt true. She only did it, because she still saw this girl who was not bright at all and what not. Sure she showed me love, but it wasnt the love i needed. 
So you get to see a bit of how my family truly is, and it is quite sickening.*


Well i'm on an opinion based social site called sodahead. And one of the questions was, what are your grandparents like. And i wrote this. I hate to say this, but it is all true. This is just a hint of how my family truly is. My family will just scoff at this, but it's the truth. Like they ever cared for me. 


The only one who did love me for me was my grandma and of course she is dead now. I find i a bit funny the people who truly loved me, have passed on already. Like my Godmother and my grandmother. I just think it makes me upset that they did what they did, but what can you do? You just got to live with it and then once you are out of it, learn from those mistakes. 


When questions like this arise, it makes me sad, angry and very mixed with emotions, because it brings up memories, but it also brings up questions. As to why, they did it, why didnt they love me. Why did they have me, if they truly dont love me. And so forth. But anyways, you get an insight of how my family is. With a tidbit of this, and of course will go in my memoir, if i ever write on it. Just a very hard part to write right now and im procrasting on it. Well Until next time...

Someone not heeding a warning.....


Ian:the worst part is since i teased her so badly our parents and teachers are making me wear hello kitty bandaids on my skinned up nose chin and knees for several weeks
Ian:is that too harsh? they say its the perfect punishment for my crime
me:hm sounds like the family is in the lifestyle lol. but there is nothing wrong with wearing any type of bandaids really
Ian:i guess they are
Ian:its definately a public humiliation for sure
me:yea
Ian:i hate it but they said it was the perfect thing for me considering what i did
me:eh, it really didnt need that. And you could of said no, you know. Because i think they are in the lifestyle and are fake
Ian:so the lifestyle is what it is i guess im just trying to make the most of life
me:i think you should get out as fast as you can. They are not doing it right at all. And of course that is people for you
me:This lifestyle is consent, and not forced
Ian:well true

Hm, i had this i guess you can call it an interesting conversation. Today, people from TN are pming me left and right. And this is one of them. He just goes into it, like we are buddies and what not. And i told him my view on it.


I do notice that a lot of people from TN are in the lifestyle. Yes, that is putting myself into that, as i am in the lifestyle and was born and raised there. But, i do it as a lifestyle and not because I'm fake and what not. Now, people there, are mostly fake, or they are very abusive. And this type seems to be abusive and what not.


I told the dude, that he needs to leave his gf and just go on his merry way. Because they are not doing the lifestyle correctly and it tends to piss me off. I hate when people tend to do this, and then say, I'm not in the lifestyle. But their actions say they are. People are just crazy as hell. And what makes me upset even more because he just yea, it's true and seems like he is just gonna keep on being with her and being in the lifestyle forcefully. Which is quite sad. But what can you do really. Sometimes you have to keep on going with your life. 
 Because you have done all that you could. I tried warning him, and now it is up to him to do what he wants. This will be his choice and his fault for staying in it, when someone who is in the lifestyle is telling him not to. But people will always be like that. You can never swadythem because they think it's okay to do this, when it's not. But you just got to wipe your feet and keep on going. Well enjoy and Until next time....

Fake Dom once again....


james:u very submissive? want to meet a french mastser?
me:as in to talk, fine. But to try and Dom me, go somewhere else
james:show urself on cam?
me:and go away


As you see here, there are so many fakes on wire club. It's like the next best thing than collar me. Everyone pm's me thinking they can own me. And I'm getting quite tired of it. As you see my response to this, I'm becoming more and more Domme in this area, because what i truly want on wire club, is to chat and to make friends. 


But will people ever understand this? I mean come on people. Shessh, what i don't get is this: why are so called doms after me, when I'm not on the market? I really don't get this. I mean it goes with being engaged as well and they just come flocking. I'm just stating this, because I'm not sexy, I'm not cute, and my personality can clash with people. So i just don't get it. Well enjoy. Until next time....

People cant read anymore....


travel:hey m on msn can i add u
me:that's good. why?
travel:so we can see each other my cam is on
me:nope, states in my profile i dont do that

You just got to love people. What is the whole point in putting up a huge profile, if no one reads it? I mean, if you are wanting to chit chat with me, i don't mind that. But when people do this, it just annoys me, and just shows me how many idiots are on wire club. 


 I already stated I'm not going to be doing this all the time. And even responding back to them, it gets a bit tiresome and such. Well you get to see how people are. Until next time....

April 15, 2012

Someone asking if the lifestyle is a club or not......


anuya:ur user name is diff
anuya:wat does tat mean
me:Im an owned slave in the BDSM lifestyle and my Daddy/fiancee gave me the nick name water nymph of how much i love water
anuya:so wat is tis slave
anuya:like sex slave
anuya:i cant understand
me:no im not a sex slave. Im a domestic slave while doing S and M
im in the BDSm lifestyle
anuya:sorry i dont knw abt bdsm life style
me:BDSM is Bondage,Discipline,Sadistic and Masochism... it is a power exchange lifestyle
anuya:do u want to be join some club for it ah
me:not a club, it's a lifestyle
me:a way of living
anuya:so then hw long u r living tis life style
me:almost five years now
anuya:oh k k

Well i was talking to a nice person on wire club for once. He is from India, so he didn't understand my id name at all, but asked politely what it meant. So i told him, and he still didn't understand it. Now, he sorta went a bit cliche with it, but i let it slide as he asked nicely. 


So i went a bit into it. And from there asked if it was a club. Now I've noticed a lot of people in India who talk to me, always ask if it is a club or cult. And again, i had to say, no it's not. It's a way of life... even though others in this lifestyle will not agree at all. I still wonder why they think its a club or a cult, when there are people there who are in the lifestyle. I guess it is more hush hush than here. Well anyways, enjoy and Until next time.....

People who tests your rules and what not.


steve:how r u sexy slave
steve:r u owned?
me:of course
me:and engaged
steve:ohh ok
steve:would u like serve two m,asters?
me:nope
me:good bye

Sometimes people do not understand when to leave things alone. You have two types of so called doms on wire club. It is a.)fake doms, who try to dom you no matter what and b.) kinksters who think they know the lifestyle and what not. 


 And of course this one, i think is the a.) one. Because i said i was engaged and owned, yet was trying to get me to serve him as well. I have made this rule already that I'm not going to be talking a long time with idiots anymore. And it's been working out pretty good. The only problem is, there are so many idiots that its hard getting a good conversation going. Even with these, saying no and ignoring, still takes a lot out of me. Well anyways, look at this as a little insight on how you can spot fakes or kinksters in the lifestyle. Until next time....

A rant i written earlier.....

But im just tired of us compromising to death, while they dont have to. She hates people doing things behind her back, but she is doing things behind my back and it's really pissing me off. I feel like snapping, because i hate people washing things that dont need to be washed at all. I'm tired of people doing things that were never done. Like with the oven and such. 

I just feel like i have ocd, because i like the things they are. I dont like people touching my stuff and cleaning it. It makes me feel and their actions show that hey im not an adult, im just a child and you have to do everything for me. I'm getting pretty much tired of that. And she is just triggering shit one after another. Just like my mother and then going to put it back in the oven. It's very dangerous to have things in there and especially foil. I dont get what people think when they do stuff.
I'm trying my hardest to keep my mouth shut. But it seems its getting bad again for me. I think what started it was your uncle. Saying the we mouse again. When it was just for him and susie. Im getting tired of that. And then her cleaning things that dont need it, drives me fucking crazy. And then get a bit upset or so because i move them because i fucking hate it in the oven. Seriously, i dont know how much i can take of this. Sigh. 

And then on top of that, i have to keep my mouth quiet and write it on the computer, is really fucking hard for me. Im the type of person to get in your face or come to you and tell you off. But since this fucking family is not like mine, i have to be like a fucking quiet mouse and i truly hate it. As you can see, im pretty much pissed and of course feeling like im right back at my family's place. Triggers that are happening because people are dumb asses and such.

She hasnt been here for a month and already i just want to cuss her out. And then got into one altercation. I really dont know what God wants from me. But like i told Daddy, i cant go through this again. I seriously cant do this again. I cant be a damn puppet to appease people who are very fucking unstable. I cant hide who i am any longer. 

That was a reason why i left. Well one of many reasons, and of course im right back in it. 

Sigh, i just dont know what to do anymore. But i cant keep feeling like this. This anger that pops up when she does something that really gets on my fucking nerves. 
She told me, when we got into the fight, that i have to run things by her. Like this was her house all along. And then said she hates people doing things behind her back, yet she is doing all this shit. 

With the dishes, touching my stuff and not putting it back where i had it, then she brought her dogs, after W/we told them no. Then bringing them in when im really sick. And on top of that, trying to put paper towel down the toilet, when it shouldnt go in there.And of course im running a fever, been sick for about a week and a half and i have to keep my mouth shut. I have to appease her so she wont get mad. And her being a damn drunk. 
No thank you, im not going to do that. Im a grown adult, but i guess people dont fucking see it as that. Sigh, Just need out of this damn place. Okay guess im done now. Sigh

April 14, 2012

You can see how listens to you and who doesnt....


Knight:-steals ur tub so u cant have nice warm bubblie baths.
me:lol well then you would have to steal all of them, silly. You of all people should know im a water nymph for a reason lol
knight:u said u dont that. >.>
knight:and y ME of all people??? >>..>>
me:huh?
knight:u told me u dont like water bondage.
knight:that it was one of ur hard limits.
me:wow, ive done things in the lifestyle with water. lol, but what im talking about it just being a plain water nymph

Lol and you can tell people do not listen or read anything i put down. I was talking to a friend on wire club and he was playing around. Saying he was going to steal my tub so i cant take bubble baths. And i was playing on with me being a water nymph, that he will have to steal all my tubs and what not. For some reason he thought i was a nympho and dont do any water stuff in the lifestyle.


So i had to put it straight to him. And he didnt even know what a water nymph was. So i had to give him the link to what a water nymph was, and from there was trying to dom me. Im not sure if he is playing with that or not, but it is becoming tiresome when he is online. Well enjoy the conversation and Until next time.....

April 11, 2012

People who do not know this lifestyle, shouldnt be in it.


funnflirty

fun:interesting nickname
me:yw. thanks i live by it
fun:so u r a slave
fun:and a nympho for water
me:yes who is owned
fun:????
me:nope
me:and im a water nymph
me:en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Naiad
fun:u r owned
fun:who is ur master
me:no one you know
fun:very interesting
fun:so u active in it
me:of course
fun:i would love to try it
me:nope, its not for everyone. Especially for kinksters who do not know it at all

And again, it happens. I love when things happen about five plus times in a day. But i don't get why people look at my id name and think where do they get nympho from? But anyways, i just love people who do not know the lifestyle at all, want to try it out. Like it is some kind of game. 
 And i told the guy off. This is not a game at all. People who are kinksters, like him, should not even try it. It is very dangerous. I mean hell, when i started this, about five years ago, i didn't jump into it. I had to learn a lot of stuff, before ever being active in it. I had to do so much, that it was really hard work. This lifestyle doesn't come to be fun all the time, as people think it to be. 


Nope, this lifestyle is very hard, it's very frustrating but in the end, it is very rewarding as well. But people will not know this because they all think its all wonderful and what not. Hate to burst your bubble, but it's called a lifestyle for a reason. With that, after i gave it to him, he just ignored me. I'm glad so, because i would of went off more on his ass. Well enjoy the conversation and Until next time....

People can clearly not read anymore....


sa=stupid ass

sa:i'm good.. So, nymph eh?
me:water nymph
sa:meaning?
me:en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Naiad
sa:ok.. So, it's not a sexual term then?
me:nope
sa:ok.. So, it's not a sexual term then?
me:nope
sa:ic... bet you get a lot of confused people messaging you.
me:lol i sure do

Well with this pm, I've been getting a lot of people, pming me because they think my name means I'm a nympho. Yes, my name is slavewaternymph, but it does not mean I'm a nympho at all. You just got to love people who assumes things. I will get, well what does that mean. Have you not heard of a water nymph? So i have to keep this link up, and paste it to them, as to what a water nymph is. Like i said in the title, people can not read at all anymore. 


I state it once in my profile,once in a blog on wire club and so many times to people. Yet no one wants to say they are wrong with that. Sigh, you just got to love people, huh? Well enjoy the conversation and Until next time....

People, oh people...


sa=stupid ass

sa:call me master
me:nope
me:not going to happen
sa:do you need a spanking
me:do i need to spank your ass? seriously im engaged and owned
now leave

Oh you just got to love fake doms in this lifestyle. Huh, don't you? Because i sure don't. And of course one just had to pop up today. Thought he could just own me, without ever asking, hey are you owned? hey are you married? Nope, it was hey, I'm your master. You cant do anything. Well you gotta love my answers back to his ass. 


I hate bringing out my Domme side. I truly do, as it is not in me to do this, but when people do not understand no, or nope, i don't do this, because I'm owned, its like you have to bring out your mean side and what not, in order for them to listen. And even at that, some wont listen at all. So you have to block them for a bit. Sad, but you gotta do what ya gotta do. Well enjoy the very short conversation, and see what a fake think they can do in this world. Until next time....

Mentality of people....


ja=jack ass

ja:slave?
me:hm
ja:what sort of slave?
me:read profile
ja:you seem to be nice
me:thanks, i try to be
ja:hahaha try to be? do you try to be naughty too?
me:hm nope. try as in, not to be an ass when stupid people try to talk to me or try to fucking Dom me
ja:hahaaha
ja:dom you in what way?
me:hm im so not going to go there
ja:hahaha
ja:sex domination?
me:its kinda apparent what Dom means
ja:not all the time if youre thinking straight
ja:so do you get naughty?
me:nope and this is where i say good bye

The mentality of people. I hate when people who say they are in their twenties, but act like teenagers. Its like how they perceive things, that they act like this. I have a rule now, that i haven't put up just yet, but its this: I'm not giving out any more personal personal information, unless i know they can be trusted with it.And I'm not giving people who are truly stupid a chance. I talk about two minutes and from there i will evaluate it, and if i see that they are truly stupid and don't want to understand me or the lifestyle, then i will just ignore them. 


And with this pm, you get to see, I'm getting pretty use to doing this now. Its seems like almost everyone on wire club, are either stupid or horn dogs. Just don't get a break from it. But anyways, enjoy the short convo and Until next time....

April 8, 2012

Idiot people.....


db=dumb ass

db:you a slave?
me:lol yes an owned one
me:why
db:wana roleplay?
me:no
db:can i have a go of you ?
db:whos your owner?
me:lol it wont work like that
me:go somewhere else
db:bend over slut
me:good bye

Yea, you just got to love idiots. huh? Well this guy just comes out of nowhere asking if he can have a go with me. Well I'm doing something new, which has been working pretty well. Once you say your peace, you just keep ignoring them. I've had two people i had to block for a few minutes, but then take off of block. But for the most part, just ignoring the dumb ass people works perfectly.


I hate when they come up, and thinking i will be their slave and what not. I hate people not reading profiles, and then get all mad at you, for not doing what they want and such. Sorry, but this lifestyle doesn't work like that. Don't like it, then don't be in it. Or even try to understand it. Well enjoy the conversation. Until next time....

Happy Easter Everyone....

Well want to say Happy Easter to everyone. I hope you all have a great day. I have been a bit busy, baking banana nut muffins, for Communion. Then making food for the feast, which was small but of course awesome for God. I hope everyone will be safe on this day. :)

April 2, 2012

Stupid people...


db=dumb ass

db:do u have facebook
me:yes
db:can i have id
me:maybe
db:give ur id
me:so now we are demanding my id?
db:ya
me:lol i would advise you not to do this
db:why?
me:because i am engaged and owned and when someone tries to demand something from me
will get my claws
db:hahhha
db:i just want fb not u?
me:nope
it will not happen
db:ok
db:then add me
me:lol no
db:what u want ?
me:lol like i want anything
that is society for you
always have to be a gain somewhere huh
db:oooo i c
db:why u come 2 wire club ...
me:hm well i think you should read my profile to get that answer
db:ok
db:u rhot?
me:lol does that matter?
db:fuck u
me:lol you wish you can fuck me

You just got to love idiots, huh. Well was talking to this guy, and he demands things from me. That is not the way to try and be my friend. Because for one, it is part of my rules, and two, because i don't think friendship is suppose to be demanding. And of course, like i said, people always need something to gain from it, just to be nice. Why does that always happen? I mean can you not do things without gaining anything from it? 


He finally got tired of me, not giving him the answers he wanted and said fuck me. Well when people do this, i will just say what i did, and then go my merry way. I'm not going to be on here, doing things that they want. Not going to happen at all. Well enjoy the conversation and Until next time...

People trying to talk down to me....


MrC:Ah one of those, I see..
MrC:north tn
me:it's middle tn
me:and what is one of those/
MrC:sub..
me:yes, im a slave
me:as id states
MrC:a sub and a slave are 2 different things..A slave though, oh ok..
me:yes, i know what the difference is
me:im not new to the lifestyle

It really annoys me that people think they know everything about this lifestyle and such. And in this pm, i have a know it all. Which i shoot down pretty fast and he leaves me be. But, i hate so called doms and such, trying to make me feel foolish, or talk down to me, and I'm not going to have that at all. 


I am a human being after all. Yes, i am a slave, but that doesn't mean you can talk down to me whenever you feel like it. I hate people who are not in the lifestyle act more so they are in it, and try to do all these power trips and such. And I'm not going to have it at all. That is one thing i strive for a lot. Is that i tell people i will only obey one person in my life and i have that. Anyone else comes into my life, will only be friends and try to tell me what to do and what not. Well enjoy and Until next time...

How this lifestyle works.....


so= someone

so:would you mind if i asked some things about your lifestyle?
me:sure
me:you can ask all you want
so:well, first of all, my understanding of the whole BDSM thing is what i have seen is porno
me:right, and most times it is stereotypical
so:which i realize is probably an accurate reflection of BDSM any more than the heterosexual presentation is accurate
an inaccurate (sorry)
me:it's okay
so:i meant not an accurate
me:right
so:so does it just involve tying up and things in the mouth, etc.?
me:um most people yes. But it depends on the people, if they like that or not
so:well what else does it invlve?
involve
me:well the main thing, is power exchange
and with that, you have two options from that.. B and D, which is bondage and Domination/Discipline.. which most do
or you have S and M which is Sadistic and masochism... which some do
so:so do you do the bd thing or the sm thing or both?
me:W/we, me and Daddy do S and M
sometimes the Bondage but mostly S and M
so:so what does that involve?
me:well it depends on how "extreme" you are. For U/us, it's sorta medium.. lots of whipping, um choking,drowning, done wax, done knife play
and still exploring more in that area
so:does this relate to sex somehow?
or is it just something you do?
me:for U/us, no.. but for others it is
W/we do it for mere power exchange
so:and you enjoy this
me:yes
but there's no sexual pleasure in it
so:are you always in the same roles?
me:um there is some.. W/we just dont do sexual things really
um, no
W/we reverse at times
so:so you arent sexually involved then
me:not really
so:please forgive me for appearing so ignorant but wheres the pleasure in the power exchange
me:that is okay. i dont know, it's just there for U/us. i dont know me:how to really explain it.. but you kinda feel the power exchange being exchanged and its a really good feeling
so:okay
so:so sometimes you might actually draw blood
me:um yes
so:doesnt that hurt?
me:um to a point it does. But, it's pleasure and pain.. you push your mind off of it
so:you said wax
me:yes
so:and the burns are okay then
me:um it was candle wax.. so it didnt leave anything really. W/we are not into the permant thing
so:so sometimes you swithc roles and you are mommy then?
me:yes, i am the Domme at times
so:your profile says youre engaged
me:yes i am
so:are you engaged to this man you call daddy?
me:yes
so:but you said you havent had much sexual contact with him
me:right
so:well for me i would rather have sexual contact than this
but to each his own
me:yea, it's different for each person
so:maybe the sexual desire i have is fulfilled in you by the other satisfaction
me:maybe
so:is there some way of signalling the ohter person when it is going too far?
me:yes
there will always be a safe word, or for U/us, usually He will stop and ask if im okay, or i tap Him or say stop, He stops
so:wow that takes a TREMENDOUS amount of trust
me:yes
and that is what is needed in this lifestyle. Trust and communication
is two big keys in the lifestyle

Sigh, this is why some people shouldn't be in the lifestyle or think they should be in it. Really people need to learn what this lifestyle is about, instead of assuming things. Well talked to this guy, and just seemed he really didn't give a shit about it. I think he was trying to see my flaws into being in the lifestyle, and then from there, shoot it down, but of course he didn't know who he was dealing with. 


You get to see how people perceive me and the lifestyle. But with this, no matter what, i will be myself and not care what people think. It's just sad that most think like this Well enjoy the conversation and Until next time...

People who think they can dom me no matter what


so=someone

so;not much ur getting married???
me:yes, im engaged and owned
so:someone owns u
me;yes
oh ok
so:so u do as ur told
me:yup, if it stays in my boundaries and limits
so:so u like it hard but soft no kinky shit u wanna be dominated but to scared to see if u really like it or not
me:lol love how you assume things. I am a switch, but i am more slave than anything
me:i do enjoy being a Domme but still i love more so serving
and i love soft and hard, it depends
so:so u like to be on ur knees more than on top
me:i just said that. i love to serve more so
so:is ur other half there with u now
me:of course. He never leaves my side and i live with Him
so:why aint u pleasing him
me:lol not all the time you can please  with U/us it is different
so:if i owned u u would be on ur knees with my tackle down ur throat
me:lol and you never will be
me:which im glad for that
so:why would u be glad for that
me:u dont know me
me:because for one, i will only obey one Master, which is my fiancee. me:Two, you dont know me as well, or my needs and wants and never will
me:so yes, im glad for that
me:and people who say, well they own me, wish they did and are wanting nothing but sex
so:well if u say that u r willing to let someone own u u deserve to be spoken too in a manner which u will not like
me:lol in what way
so:the way i just spoke to u
me:lol and how is that acceptable?

You just gotta love people. You start talking about the lifestyle, and think they can own you no matter what and such. So, started talking a bit, and the dude goes on to saying, well if you were mine, i would do this and that. Like i told him, usually when people do this, it means they just want to use me. And I'm not that type of girl or person for that matter. 


Well went on, and told him off because I'm tired of people being so stupid and what not. And at the end, i just love, how he thinks he can just dom me, or to even "talk" to me in that way. I am no one's slave,but Daddys. I consent with Him and only Him. That doesn't mean  you can come into my life, and say this and that and do what you please. Not going to happen, ever going to happen. And of course i just stopped talking to him because he was a dumb ass. But enjoy the conversation and Until next time....

April 1, 2012

Rules to being friends with me/rant


Today seems to be idiot day. When things go on for me, its not one litle thing, it's a lot of stuff. From people nitpicking my poetry, which annoys me, to idiots who think their opinion is better than mine. And to especially call me woman, and cant read my fucking profile correctly, should not come across me.
 You wonder why im so anti social. I see it grower more and more each day. My patience is growing very slim these days to idiots and rude people who come to me. It's like they flock in groups, one after another. And you wonder why i start yelling and becoming a cold bitch to people.

Maybe it is the stress in my life. As i cant do things in it, and im lashing out. Maybe it could be that i will be starting soon(a girl thing) and my symtomps are bad this time around.
 It could be also, that i thought i made a good friend and i see already they are growing weary of me. And it hurts to the core, because i confided so much. I gave a piece of myself away, and it's just to the wind.
 It hurts when you do that, and i do it each time. I think i make a good friend, and over a few days time, i see that they are upset with me, i see that they are bothered by me and etc. I know at some length it is my fault. I know im a very stubborn person to get along with. I know that i have a bad temper, but i am changing. I mean we are all human beings. i know i have faults as well. But you dont see me running away after people have faults. I only do that when people do not listen to me, on my rules and what not. But other than that, i know people have faults and i accept that, and get past it bit by bit.

What i dont get and what hurts, is giving yourself to someone who you think is your friend, hurts a lot. Right now, im in a weird funk, as i know this relationship isnt working out at all. It was a quick fix for this girl, and she will just go her way. I hate giving myself to people who only want an outlet for their feelings, but i have to keep mine shut, and keep going to let them talk about their feelings.
 I hate people like that. I had many so called friends who did that to me long ago, and no more will i do this. No more will i put myself in a place that i will get hurt or things wont go any further than them getting their feelings out. This is why im making a list of rules, if you truly want to be my friend. I hate to do this, and may be very strict, but this is how i cope with things. So here is my list, online:
 A. No adding me without talking to me first and foremost.
 B. The first words out of your mouth, or techinally typing, hey baby sexy or hey can i see your pics, or you want sex, there will be no going further than a fuck you and blocked for a while.
 C. If you get this far, pat your back. But it just gets harder from here to earn my trust. We start to talk about things, getting to know one another. Small talk really, nothing of personal past or such. If i see if we are fit, then you will hit the next point.
 D. You should be proud by getting this far. At this point, i will look to see if you talk to me on a daily basis. And by wanting to talk and listen to me as well.
 From there, i will assess all the pros and cons since day one we have chatted. If you do all of this, then you will go to the next round.
 E. from here, i will slowly open up a bit. No forcing me to talk about my past. I will open up, if i see you are worthy of it. And be a true friend like i am with others.
 From there, i will look back and asses as well, if i see you are getting bored of me, run away because of what i say, if you respect me and my lifestyle and what ive gone through. If i see that you run away, disappear, say something negative in the chat, say im a bothersome, i will cut you out.
 F. from there, i can open more so of who i am. And still keep going with assessing each times. And it will be like this til i can see truly you are worthy to be my friend. I will see if you can weather my emotions and what not, as i do with others.

I hate that this has to be, but it's the only way i know how to get through all of this. I am tired of giving myself to people who are not worthy of my time and who i am. I am tired of talking about my past, and reliving it each time, as it hits huge things inside me. I am tired that people get bored of me, within a few times of talking and i have to stay or be subjected to it, because i have no one else, but Daddy to talk to.

Im slowly learning this hard lesson in my life. But i have to do something in order to be myself. I am scaring myself, as i am doing things all over again, as i did in the past, and it scares the hell out of me, because people cant be true, cant be trusted of things and it effects me big time.

Right now, i see im doing this weird time lapse and such. A few years ago, i thought i was smaller than i am now. And feels like i was living a make believe world. Im doing it all over again. And this is not something i want to keep doing. As it messes with me. I feel like
things are true and i keep with it. And then later down the road, they are not true at all. What is going on with me? I feel like im crazy. I feel like im breaking all over again, but this time not in a good way.

I have to do something. Im looking into the free counseling and see if they can help in a way. Because i cant be doing this all through my life. I got to see what the hell is going on with me. Sigh, all i know is i cant get any medicine for it. I got to know why im anti social, and getting worse each month if not year.

I really didnt think this would hurt me but it did. I guess because i talked about my past, i mean in huge length and i see they didnt care at all. And its screwing with me. Im having nightmares, or im not dreaming at all. Im doing the time lapse with thinking one thing is real when it isnt. I think i need to go in. Okay well enough of my ramblings. Sigh.