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I'm 23 now; In the BDSM lifestyle for four- almost five years now. I am a 24/7 slave with a wonderful Daddy/fiancee: who is artcomet.blogspot.com. But as you will see in this blog are the emotions that I go through each and every day- in and out of the lifestyle. This is to show how much I've grown and bonded with my Daddy, how I've dealt with 'the world", and how I dealt with people in the BDSM lifestyle; Enjoy.

March 27, 2013

journal of a water nymph day three

march 22, 2013

Yesterday was a mess. The day before Daddy was getting very angry with me, and of course when He gets mad at me for no reason, i fight back. Its my only reaction to it. W/we fought for most of the time. Went to bed, and today, gosh today sucked. 

The day before He goes out for about an hour or so on His own. I had a feeling He was back on myyearbook talking to Dommes and what not, but this was a new blow to me. I get up, and i see that He had cut His hair and what not. I thought it was to look good for me, and what not and i thought it was sweet. 

And after that, He wanted me to get ready so W/we can go and take back the laptop, so that is what i do. After getting dressed, Daddy is trying to find His wallet. Of course He lost it, and was getting worried, as to His bus pass, debt card and id was in it. 
Then He tells me He was up to something very bad and that God was punishing Him for it. I brace myself inside and i asked, what did you do? He tells me that last night He was going to meet up with a Domme and have sex. I just broke down. I couldnt believe it. I start crying, this is more than what He has done in the past. Im use to Him talking to so called Dommes online but meeting up to have sex, that was new. 

After that He felt bad, and W/we talked about it. And saying that God is punishing Him for Him being evil. He knows He is my soul mate, but He just wanted to ignore everything and be bad for a bit. 
He goes on and says, well i warned you last night. You keep pushing me away im going to go somewhere else, and i bawl, because i thought He was just saying it again and not doing anything about it. 

Had a very long talk in this. Just not doing the lifestyle so much, and me being cranky and not being a good slave, does this. It just hurts when He does this. Im scared of loosing Him. I keep trying to tell Him, i need this all the time. And as of lately, He is working and on His days off, still not doing that. 

After this, it helped U/us get back to being on the same level, and i missed it so much. With that, He was touching me affectionately on the bus again, been so long since He's done that. Finally after all of this, got on the bus, He paid the money and asked if His wallet was on the bus. Bus driver asked, is it all black? And He pulls it out, and im like, that's it. He opens it up, do you have a pic in it. And yup, he goes, yup that is you. lol. I said thank you, and thank you God so many times. Got an eyebrow raised from the guy and sat down. Thanked God a couple of more times, and happy that no one stole it. Felt relived about that. 

Went to wal mart, got things and came back home. Went back out, got some things for the house, and got movies and a pizza, for a movie night. Get back home, and i became snippy again. Daddy turned, and said, im going to have to be a better Dom than i am. You are getting out of hand, which i am, sadly. 
Made me go to the kitchen, spread my legs really far apart, almost falling down, and spanking my thighs, calves, butt, back, tits, til i bruised. Me sobbing my eyes out, and He pulls me up by my hair and asks, are you going to be good? I couldnt answer and He says say something, so i said yes. Lets go, and says well since you cant be good, you will have to clean up the house, and not watch the movies. Now go clean. I start doing it, and after five minutes of doing it. Did other things, and says are you going to be good now? I nodded, and He finally let me watch O/our show, but on the floor, and after a while, have my treats. 
He tells me, now on, you are going to earn your rewards, you've gotten big for yourself, and think you can get them even being bad. 

So with all of this, im hoping that He will be consitant in it, which i really think He is, as today, got snippy and He whipped me again, but not as bad. But im hoping it stays and that W/we can get back into doing the lifestyle more than what W/we have been doing now. 

All of this was a wake up call for both of U/us. God telling U/us W/we need to start talking again, and doing the lifestyle, to be a better couple and what not. Hopefully this will be. I think with that, W/we need some equipment other than what W/we are doing, to make it more real. So hopefully all of this will work. Until then. 
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