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I'm 23 now; In the BDSM lifestyle for four- almost five years now. I am a 24/7 slave with a wonderful Daddy/fiancee: who is artcomet.blogspot.com. But as you will see in this blog are the emotions that I go through each and every day- in and out of the lifestyle. This is to show how much I've grown and bonded with my Daddy, how I've dealt with 'the world", and how I dealt with people in the BDSM lifestyle; Enjoy.

August 21, 2016

I wish you were here poem

I wish you were here 
To see how this woman grown
Into someone you never thought would be

I wish you were here
To celebrate birthdays
To celebrate holidays
And more importantly 
Still here to talk to. 

How I have wished you were here
Sitting and doing your crafts
While we talked all throughout the night
About anything and everything
Feeling so comfortable in your presence…

But I know that is long gone
But I hoped
I wished
I longed for you to be here
Just one more day
To tell me, you love me
No matter what ive done in my life
To tell me that you are proud of me
Becoming the woman I want to be
To tell me that you miss me so much
And begging to call me one more time

But all I can do
Is see you in my dreams
You talking to me there
Celebrating in your own way
Saying/whispering you are here

All I can do is collect the things you loved
To just have a touch
A print of you in my life
To know you are still here

All I can do
Is see the signs
Wherever they will be
And feel comforted 
That you are near. 

All I can do
Is talk to God
And in my heart
To have just one last kiss
One last breath
One last touch
Of you here. 

I never thought 
You wouldn’t be here
I never thought you would leave
Without saying goodbye
I never thought you would just be gone 
In a blink of an eye
And leave the hole in my heart

This grief that takes a hold
And show me I truly loved you. 

I took for granted 
Of the time I had with you
And each night
Each day 
I regret not spending so much more time with you
I regret not talking to you as much
Regret/doubted that you loved me
All because of what family has said and done. 

I wish you were here
To hold me
And say that everything is and will be alright
That you are here to hold my hand
To give me the words I need 
To go on
But I know that is a dream
A dream I yearn 
Is to see you one more time. 

I love you grandma and I truly miss you so much.